Confessions of an Ideal Protein Coach: Down 10 Lbs - Why do I feel disappointed?

Hi Everyone -

I'm down 2 lbs for this weigh-in. 

Before I'm allowed to go on and explain why I feel disappointed, my coach has instructed me to acknowledge that this makes me down 10 lbs in 1 month. 10 lbs a month is dead-on average for all women at our clinic, and is exactly what I averaged the first time I did this diet.  And this was not just any month.  She reminded me I not only didn't gain (as I surely would've in my pre-restart binge-mode), but I LOST despite the following challenges:

  • Halloween (with candy *everywhere*)
  • My boyfriend's birthday (with cheesecake *everywhere*)
  • Thanksgiving (enough said)
  • Thanksgiving #2 (a surprise feast of leftovers)
  • A knee injury (I always feel like eating when I'm in physical pain)
  • A car problem (which prompted instant cravings for Taco Bell -- why?!?)

I don't know why I always think I should be doing better than I am...  This weigh-in was 2 lbs, but that was for 2 weeks.  Granted, it was over my cheesecake / Thanksgiving week, so perhaps I should be doing a happy dance for being down at all.   Instead, I'm feeling disappointed in myself that my loss for the month wasn't bigger.  I feel like it should've been 15 total, or something like that.  (Sigh)

Why do I do this to myself?  I don't let my clients get away with it. I barrage them with a pep-talk on steroids if I sense them being hard on themselves...  

Well, I AM a people-pleaser, a perfectionist and an over-achiever.  I guess that's why.  I am working on being happy that over a Holiday month, I lost weight rather than gained.  I'm working on being proud of myself for accomplishing this rather than imagining how much better I could've done if I'd been more perfect. I did good. I feel good. Today is a new day, and I'm encouraged.

I'm going to keep this post short and sweet and let it stand as a celebration.  My next post will be about my tendency for any time off to equate (in my tricksy little mind) to a VACATION FROM EVERYTHING!